Restless Cycle

Each year I go through a R.C., a state of uncertainty, not sure what I am doing is really what I want to do. A friend forwarded this commencement address by Steve Jobs. I read it and the restlessness that I've been feeling intensified. It's been 5 years since I graduated and I still haven't found what is it that really makes me tick. I am the "Jane" of all trades. Sure, I've come to realise what I am good at and what I am not good at but I can't seem to bring myself to fully pursue something wholeheartedly. "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" The answer has been NO for the past 5 years and it's brought me to 3 different work environments. All's not lost, I suppose. There's hope. God-willing, it'll be a YES soon and continually so.

Incorrect Premonition

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NOOoo…!! It can’t be!! I could not have missed the 4pm appointment!! The appointment time and venue is saved in my mobile phone calendar! I even set the alarm reminder! Alas, I looked at the clock on my mobile phone, strangely enough, it showed a time way past the appointment time. Why didn’t the alarm come on??

*BEEEEP, BEEEP, BEEEP, BEEEP !!!*

Huh?!? *rubs my eyes* 9am??? ohhh… it was JUST a dream. Phew… I’m going back to bed….ZzzzZZzz…

*BEEEEP, BEEEP, BEEEP, BEEEP !!!*

Whhaaaa…?!?!? Am I dreaming again?? No, it's my phone ringing…no caller ID…hmm…

Me: Hello?
Caller: Hi, morning. I couldn’t reach M on his mobile, do you know where’s M? I am already late for my flight.
Me: No, was M suppose to take you to the airport?
Caller: Yes.
Me: What time’s your flight?
Caller: 9.40am

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Caller eventually took the cab to the airport and had another flight ticket issued for an afternoon flight the same day.